Journey to heal relationships that entwine grief.

 1.    Journey to heal a relationship that entwines grief.

I played track number one of my drumming CD for this journey. It runs for approximately thirteen minutes.

I went to my sacred Garden. Then I stated my journey intention to Angel Cupid and Lord Shiva, “Journey to heal a relationship that entwines grief.” Although this was the intent I stated, what I was actually getting in my thoughts repeatedly was, “Journey to block a relationship that entwines grief.”

I was still in my sacred garden with Angel Cupid and Lord Shiva. A brightly lit city showed up in the northeast. It was a golden white sunlight and all the buildings were ivory white and dome shaped, like the top of mosques and temples. I asked if I had to actually travel to the city and Angel Cupid said, “Yes.” The strip of land that appeared was densely built with two rows and all the buildings looked the same.

I went with angel Cupid riding on my horseback. Lord Shiva followed suit on his Nandi ox with Devi Parvati on her lion. I’d invited them both. I’d also invited my Jaguar. This city was in lower world and was made within view from my sacred garden. Once there, I remained seated on my horseback with angel Cupid. Lord Shiva took off and disappeared somewhere. I looked around at the houses; they all looked the same. The one closest to me had a pinkish red floor. And there were no walls, just thick, tall pillars to support the dome shaped roof; the temple itself with the idols was not visible to me. They all looked the same. Some of the other buildings might have had walls too, but they were not in my focus, so I couldn’t say. I remained seated on my horseback with angel Cupid for the remainder of the journey.

Finally, Lord Shiva arrived with a pink balloon in his hand and handed it to me. I took it, quite confused. Balloons usually make me feel happy; but this time, I felt nothing. Then I handed the balloon to angel Cupid for safekeeping. Then I returned to my sacred garden with angel Cupid at the sound of the return beat of the drum.

Then I came back to normal reality, back to my room.

Then I went on to the next journey and stated my journey intention to Angel Cupid and Lord Shiva, “Journey to ask Lord Shiva to heal a relationship that entwines loss for me.” I found that my sacred garden was somewhat shadowed and the shadow was extending towards the city that we’d just left behind. Lord Shiva had already taken off towards upper world. I did not know where his final destination was going to be. I did not see any chord or track that he followed. I asked my Jaguar to eat up the darkness and shadows.

Angel Cupid handed me the balloon and said, “ You have to accept the balloon; you have taken it, but you have not accepted it.” Then he handed me the pink balloon that Lord Shiva had brought to me. I took some personal time and accepted the balloon as best as I could at that moment; it did not feel complete. I had no idea what it was; I just trusted Lord Shiva and my angel about this.

// Saturday, February 20, 2016.

2.    Journey to heal all relationships that entwine grief… in past, present and future life times.

I went to my sacred Garden and stated my journey intention to Angel Cupid and Lord Shiva, “Journey to heal all relationships that entwine grief… in past, present and future life times.”

My power animal, horse, was in my Sacred Garden along with Angel Cupid and Lord Shiva. I sat on my horseback and watched as the lower world on the east side of my sacred garden opened and went lower and further down to reveal a pool of wet mud; it could have been the bottom of a pool or it could have been “Chora Bali” (shifting sand). I watched it for a very long time, with no change whatsoever. Then new trees with new growth began to grow from the outside in till all of the wetland was planted.

Then, at the sound of the return beat of the drum, I came back to normal reality, back to my room.

// Saturday, July 01, 2017.