Journey to heal relationships that entwine grief.

 1.    Journey to heal a relationship that entwines grief.

I played track number one of my drumming CD for this journey. It runs for approximately thirteen minutes.

I went to my sacred Garden. Then I stated my journey intention to Angel Cupid and Lord Shiva, “Journey to heal a relationship that entwines grief.” Although this was the intent I stated, what I was actually getting in my thoughts repeatedly was, “Journey to block a relationship that entwines grief.”

I was still in my sacred garden with Angel Cupid and Lord Shiva. A brightly lit city showed up in the northeast. It was a golden white sunlight and all the buildings were ivory white and dome shaped, like the top of mosques and temples. I asked if I had to actually travel to the city and Angel Cupid said, “Yes.” The strip of land that appeared was densely built with two rows and all the buildings looked the same.

I went with angel Cupid riding on my horseback. Lord Shiva followed suit on his Nandi ox with Devi Parvati on her lion. I’d invited them both. I’d also invited my Jaguar. This city was in lower world and was made within view from my sacred garden. Once there, I remained seated on my horseback with angel Cupid. Lord Shiva took off and disappeared somewhere. I looked around at the houses; they all looked the same. The one closest to me had a pinkish red floor. And there were no walls, just thick, tall pillars to support the dome shaped roof; the temple itself with the idols was not visible to me. They all looked the same. Some of the other buildings might have had walls too, but they were not in my focus, so I couldn’t say. I remained seated on my horseback with angel Cupid for the remainder of the journey.

Finally, Lord Shiva arrived with a pink balloon in his hand and handed it to me. I took it, quite confused. Balloons usually make me feel happy; but this time, I felt nothing. Then I handed the balloon to angel Cupid for safekeeping. Then I returned to my sacred garden with angel Cupid at the sound of the return beat of the drum.

Then I came back to normal reality, back to my room.

Then I went on to the next journey and stated my journey intention to Angel Cupid and Lord Shiva, “Journey to ask Lord Shiva to heal a relationship that entwines loss for me.” I found that my sacred garden was somewhat shadowed and the shadow was extending towards the city that we’d just left behind. Lord Shiva had already taken off towards upper world. I did not know where his final destination was going to be. I did not see any chord or track that he followed. I asked my Jaguar to eat up the darkness and shadows.

Angel Cupid handed me the balloon and said, “ You have to accept the balloon; you have taken it, but you have not accepted it.” Then he handed me the pink balloon that Lord Shiva had brought to me. I took some personal time and accepted the balloon as best as I could at that moment; it did not feel complete. I had no idea what it was; I just trusted Lord Shiva and my angel about this.

// Saturday, February 20, 2016.

2.    Journey to heal all relationships that entwine grief… in past, present and future life times.

I went to my sacred Garden and stated my journey intention to Angel Cupid and Lord Shiva, “Journey to heal all relationships that entwine grief… in past, present and future life times.”

My power animal, horse, was in my Sacred Garden along with Angel Cupid and Lord Shiva. I sat on my horseback and watched as the lower world on the east side of my sacred garden opened and went lower and further down to reveal a pool of wet mud; it could have been the bottom of a pool or it could have been “Chora Bali” (shifting sand). I watched it for a very long time, with no change whatsoever. Then new trees with new growth began to grow from the outside in till all of the wetland was planted.

Then, at the sound of the return beat of the drum, I came back to normal reality, back to my room.

// Saturday, July 01, 2017.

Journey to offer a stuck part of me to Lord Shiva.

For a week prior to this journey, I did a lot of reiki on different age groups in my life. In the first run, I chose an approximate seven to eight-year interval. I offered reiki to myself from conception to age seven; then from ages eight to sixteen; ages seventeen to twenty six; ages twenty seven to thirty four; ages thirty five to present (longer range here due to time constrains). I repeated it with both Karuna reiki energy (fire) and SSR (water) energies. During the first run, I called in Lord Shiva / Shiva plus Parvati / Hanumaan ji (depending on the day of the week. On two of the sessions, I also used Lord Shiva plus Angel Cupid energies. In the start of the session I’d call in the desired energy along with myself and mother earth. I intended to offer reiki to all, including Lord Shiva or anyone else I’d called in for the purpose. Then I’d start the energy flow and and wait momentarily in shamanic space in Kailash. A soul part representing or belong to the chosen age group would show up. Then I continued with the reiki.

For the session, for ages of twenty-seven till thirty-four, a part of me showed up that was from just a year after my divorce. It was my first morning or second day of stay of that trip to Las Vegas. I had travelled here to get out of the freezing east coast winter in New Jersey. I know this was the soul part because I’d gone around and captured photos of me in the city strip almost on a daily basis during my five-week stay there. On this day, I was wearing my long brown winter coat.

So, I sent reiki to this soul part about three to four timesand there was definitely some stuck energy there; but nothing was releasing. In Shamanic reality, I saw that there was a movement from being at that totally stuck place. During that last reiki session for her, I went into Shamanic reality to check in. I had lord Shiva on his rock and goddess Parvati on another; they were both on the north side. I was sitting on a equally large rock facing them and I had Hanumaanji on a rock on the east side. There was a total disconnect even though she had started to move around. She sat by each one of us momentarily. She sat with me for the longest time. I realized that it would be hard for me to move this energy. It would take a lot more effort and reiki time for just this one part. So, based on a previous experience where I had given a Soul part of mine who was my hatred to Lord Shiva, I decided to give this stuck soul part of mine to Lord Shiva also.

I went to mount Kailash and invited in or produced this Soul part also. When we were both gathered by his side, I stated my journey intention to Lord Shiva, “Lord Shiva, I offer her to you.”

Lord Shiva immediately disappeared and there was just this two inches oval shaped outline of bright white light left. Then, after some time, she was also pulled in or disappeared. Neither of them returned for the rest of the journey.

Then, at the sound of the return beat of the drum, I came back to normal reality, back to my room.

// Saturday, December 24, 2016.

Journey with Angel Cupid to ask Lord Shiva to purify me.

I went to my sacred Garden and called on angel Cupid. He showed up and I stated my journey intention to Angel Cupid, “Journey to mount Kailash to ask Lord Shiva to purify me.”

I was just beginning to fly upwards from my sacred garden when a fire showed up. It was bluish in color. I merged with it. I was in mid air as I merged with this fire. I did un-merge momentarily about two times, but went right back into the fire and merged with it. Towards the end of this process, Lord Shiva also showed himself; he was also in mid air close by. I remained merged with the fire for the rest of the journey.

Then, at the sound of the return beat of the drum, I came back to normal reality, back to my room.

// Sunday, October 2, 2016.

Journey to ask Lord Shiva to heal a lower world issue for me and release what needs to be released.

I’d not done a lower world healing journey for quite some time; so I decided on this topic today.

I went to mount Kailash and stated my journey intention to Lord Shiva, “Lord Shiva, could you please to heal a lower world issue for me and release what needs to be released.”

I found myself with Lord Shiva in the land of my maternal ancestors. I’d met a few of my female maternal ancestors here when I first journeyed for maternal ancestral healing; and also a few more times after that. Lord Shiva stood on the sandy beach on the east side here and I stood next to him. I watched and after a short while, I noticed some black smoke rising from the sandy beach floor here. I merged with Lord Shiva and watched this for the rest of the journey as the black smoke rose and cleared. Lord Shiva just stood there and I watched.

Then, at the sound of the return beat of the drum, I came back to normal reality, back to my room.

// Saturday, October 1, 2016.

Journey to ask Lord Shiva to deepen my relationship with him.

I went to mount Kailash and stated my journey intention to Lord Shiva, “Lord Shiva, could you please deepen my relationship with you?”

Very soon, after I stated my journey intention to Lord Shiva, I was shown a scene. It was a big and tall stone temple shaped like the one in Kashi. The outside was of grey rocks. It stood on the side of a riverbank perhaps; but my attention was on the two grey roads to the temple and the big and tall tree on the side. Everything looked clean and bright here. My attention wandered away and I went back to mount Kailash and restated my journey intention to Lord Shiva, “Lord Shiva, could you please deepen my relationship with you?”

I was instantly brought back to the same scene. I watched; I felt like I might have been rising to be moving farther away from the ground. I just watched and at one point I noticed Lord Shiva standing by the big, tall tree. It seemed like I was watching through his eyes and I felt like I was watching the ground moving further away very slowly perhaps because Lord Shiva was growing taller.

My attention wandered away and I went back to mount Kailash and restated my journey intention to Lord Shiva. I was taken back to the same scene one more time. Again I watched and again, very soon, I found I was watching the ground moving further away very slowly and intermittently. I just continued to watch for the remainder of the journey.

Then, at the sound of the return beat of the drum, I came back to normal reality, back to my room.

// Saturday, October 1, 2016.

Journey to Lord Shiva to ask for a past life healing.

I went to mount Kailash and stated my journey intention to Lord Shiva, “Lord Shiva, could you please to heal a past life for me that is ready to be healed and released.”

I sat on a small rock next to Lord Shiva’s huge one as I stated my journey intention. Almost immediately, Lord Shiva disappeared. I still sat on the rock for a short while, wondering. Then I found myself growing smaller and disappeared. Next thing I know, I was standing behind Lord Shiva to his right side. He was standing on the outskirts of a forest and facing south and into the forest. The forest was shaded. I walked towards Lord Shiva and stood next to him. Once again, I found myself growing smaller and disappeared one more time. Lord Shiva still stood there and I continued to watch him.

Soon after I’d disappeared, I went off to sleep. I woke up next morning.

// Saturday, October 1, 2016.

Journey to Lord Shiva for Bonnie’s brother, Jim / Jamie

This journey was done in our Shaman circle. Bonnie’s brother, Jim / Jamie had lost his job of twenty years as an engineer and has been out of a job for almost a year now. He was let go because of internal politics and he has been unable to move on ever since. He is located in Kentucky, northeast of here.

We all journeyed for him to our helping spirits. I journeyed with Angel Cupid and Lord Shiva.

I went to my sacred Garden and invited in Angel Cupid and Lord Shiva. Then I stated my journey intention to Lord Shiva, “Journey to receive a healing for Bonnie’s brother, Jim / Jamie to help him with his situation and to help him move on and live his soul’s purpose in a joyful way.” That was the intention I put in for the journey. We each put in a similar intention, but each of us could have worded it somewhat different.

Angel Cupid, Lord Shiva and I showed up on a raised platform rock or cliff near my sacred garden and I looked towards the direction where he was located. It is a vast stretch of land between Arizona and Kentucky; but it is not so vast in Shamanic reality. Once I pinpointed a little stretch of land that represented Bonnie’s brother, Jim / Jamie’s location, I saw a man and almost immediately, the area where there was land was now a big stretch of ocean and Bonnie’s brother, Jim / Jamie was slowly sucked into it; only his hair floated on the top. I watched and it seemed like a long time; nothing was happening. Then I was spontaneously transported to the west side and I found myself on a piece of the mountain and there was ocean underneath. I moved slowly and placed myself on a safe spot. Then, I asked what I was supposed to do. I watched as a huge square like set of several pointed peaks appeared, hovered over in the air and settled down on the mountain land. I watched them for a long time and I hovered over a few of the peaks myself. 

Then I went back to where Lord Shiva was before I’d been relocated. It was almost time to return and Bonnie’s brother, Jim / Jamie’s hair was still floating on the vast ocean surface. Nothing had changed. So after a short wait, I asked Lord Shiva to continue and complete the healing and now, to fast forward to the end of the healing. 

Rapidly, things changed. A translucent white figure of a man rose out of the ocean and walked over the water towards Lord Shiva. The ocean then returned to being the original piece of land that was between here and Kentucky. Bonnie’s brother, Jim / Jamie was sent back to his residence in Kentucky.

Then, when ready, I came back to normal reality, back to the center of the circle and drummed.

// Saturday, July 16, 2016.

Journeys to fulfill healing requests.

Three of the group members had healing requests at our last Shaman circle. All three requests were done in one journey, one after the other.

1.    One was for a personal healing for self and for this, we each went into journey space in shamanic reality and asked our helping spirits to send her some healing.

2.    A second request was for a little girl suffering from a brain annuirism. Healing was requested by her grandmother and mother through our group member. Jim had asked us to send our healing prayers to merge with the prayers of others.

I was at mount Kailash and Lord Shiva was sitting there on his rock. I stated my journey intention to Lord Shiva, to send a healing request for the little girl; she is about five years old. My girl who sends light balls appeared and I though to her, “She is about your age.” She spontaneously sent out a light ball and I told her, “You can not send healing energy directly to the little girl; you will have to merge that ball with the healing prayers of others.” As I merged that light ball with the prayers of others, I watched as Lord Shiva spontaneously send a ball of light also. I just watched as the ball of light came out of his hand; he is allowed to send healing light directly because he is God.

3.    The third request was for the family of one of a twin girl who had committed suicide by jumping in the path of an oncoming train. A healing had not been requested by the affected family, but it came through one of our group members who knew the family.

So, after the previous healing for a five years old girl, I switched my attention to the third healing request as above. I was at mount Kailash and Lord Shiva was sitting there on his rock. I stated my journey intention to Lord Shiva, to send a healing request for the family of one of a twin girl who had committed suicide by jumping in the path of an oncoming train. I watched as tears drops fell from Lord Shiva’s right eye. Then my attention was drawn to his left half; it was lit up and shinning bright sparkling white light. The left side was mostly dark with no light. This is the Ardhanareshwara form of Lord Shiva; it is half male on his right side and half female on his left side.

Then, at the sound of the return beat of the drum, I came back to normal reality, back to the center of the circle.

// Saturday, June 18, 2016.