Journey to Lord Shiva and ask him to fill me with love.

I went to mount Kailash. Lord Shiva was seated on his huge meditation rock. I stated my journey intention to Lord Shiva, “Lord Shiva, could you please fill me up with Love; my every cell, every fiber and every atom of my being.”

At first, nothing happened. So I transformed myself into my sparkly light being. Then it started to happen; I watched as my entire oval shaped aura was getting filled up with a light. It was more like an energy filling in. A pink mist in midst of a golden aura and within it emerged a white translucent female figure; she was my soul. She held her hands in prayer position and her eyes were cast downwards as a deep sign of reverence; this being in total opposition to my behavior. I keep prying into his face and everything else. I’ve lessons to learn from her, “My Soul.”

Then, at the sound of the return beat of the drum, I came back to normal reality, back to my room.

// Friday, April 6, 2018

Journey to ask Lord Shiva to show me my ‘Ego.’

I went to mount Kailash. Lord Shiva was seated on his huge meditation rock. I stated my journey intention to Lord Shiva, “Lord Shiva, could you please heal my ego. Can I see my ego? I’d like to give it to you.”

At first, a kid / teenage soul appeared; it looked like my 13 – 17 years old, dressed in pale yellow pastel frock and bob hair. She looked like the same one who was psychically attacked in my power center, third chakra. I’m not sure if I just imagined seeing her appear or just initiated the process, but it did not stop here. She changed into a ugly, dark skinned woman with a fat oval face. The dark tone of her skin resembled the dark grey of an Indian buffalo and she had her lips and nose were pointed upwards in the air like that of a snobbish person. She had roundish eyes and she was clad in a bright yellow saree. The yellow color of the saree is a tone I love, but it looked ugly on her. She was probably wearing a nose ring as well. I looked at her for some time as she stared with that snobbish look, at first straight ahead and then back at me and as she sat next to me on my right, facing Lord Shiva. After watching her for some time, I requested Lord Shiva to take her. I told him that I wanted to give her to him. I sat her on Lord Shiva’s lap.

Then, at the sound of the return beat of the drum, I came back to normal reality, back to my room.

// Friday, April 6, 2018.

Journey to ask Lord Shiva to show me the physical layout of my third eye and heal it.

I went to mount Kailash. Lord Shiva was seated on his huge meditation rock. I stated my journey intention to Lord Shiva, “Lord Shiva, could you please show me the physical layout of my third eye and heal it.”

Lord Shiva took me to the place in the east side, just outside of my sacred garden. A small, but deep pool of black sludge appeared there. The pool was round and lined by the grey clay around it. Lord Shiva took position on the west side of the pool and he stood there facing the east direction. After a short while, it turned into grey clay land and merged with the land around it.  There was a sparse growth of green grass starting to sprout and more grass sprouting.

Then, at the sound of the return beat of the drum, I came back to normal reality, back to my room.

// Friday, April 13, 2018.

Journey to ask Lord Shiva to heal and release issues and blockages from this bone under the neck on my spine.

I went to mount Kailash. Lord Shiva was seated on his huge meditation rock. I stated my journey intention to Lord Shiva, “Lord Shiva, could you please heal and release issues and blockages from this bone under the neck on my spine.”

I did this journey in my car during lunch break today and he put me to deep sleep both times; it was a much-needed sleep.

Then, I came back to normal reality, back to my car.

// Saturday, April 14, 2018.

Journey to ask Lord Shiva to show me my ‘New Mind.’

I went to mount Kailash. Lord Shiva was seated on his huge meditation rock. I stated my journey intention to Lord Shiva, “Lord Shiva, could you please show me my ‘New Mind.”

After a short while, I noticed that lord shiva was holding a toddler. She was wearing a pale cream-colored long dress that covered her entire body. She lay on his lap , her head facing the east direction. He was lovingly stroking her forehead and crown.

I watched this for the rest of this journey. Then, at the sound of the return beat of the drum, I came back to normal reality, back to my room.

// Saturday, April 14, 2018.

Journey to ask Lord Shiva to show me my ‘Mind.’

I was born with an eclipsed Moon and a retrograde Jupiter. This points to a tainted mind and tainted wisdom. Lord Shiva himself had once pointed out during a journey to meet my true self that I had a dirty mind. There was a lot of writings on my walls by other people among other things.

I went to mount Kailash. Lord Shiva was seated on his huge meditation rock. I stated my journey intention to Lord Shiva, “Lord Shiva, could you please show me my ‘Mind’.” I had intended to give my mind to him.

Then I waited for some time. Lord Shiva was still seated on his huge meditation rock; nothing seemed to be happening. I tried to split my soul part so it would show up and transform to the mind part; but this failed too. I noticed that all around us, in mount Kailash, there was a pitch black, night like darkness. The area around Lord Shiva and me was dimly lit by the presence of Lord Shiva himself. Lord Shiva worked on cleaning out this darkness in two repeats of the same journey. During the second time around, after a long time of clearing, a vision appeared. A forest appeared in the west side of my sacred garden, in the first layer of lower world with the sand beach. Then I saw a man wander through this forest. The man was not repulsive; he just looked like un-bathed and unkempt and lacked a sense of direction and urgency that I do not care a. He looked healthy otherwise. He was dark skinned, like the color of buffalo and he had a short beard and moustache and his hair was about four inches longer than those of us in civil society.

Next, I went back to mount Kailash. Lord Shiva was still seated on his huge meditation rock. I offered this man, who represented or was my mind, to Lord Shiva. I said to Lord Shiva, “Lord Shiva, I offer him (my mind) to you. Could you please give me a new mind, more like a woman.” I later realized that the mind is a male principle and probably therefore, represented by a man. Lord Shiva accepted my mind. He then put a half moon crown shaped sparkling white light over my head for a new mind.

Then, at the sound of the return beat of the drum, I came back to normal reality, back to my room.

// Friday, April 13, 2018.

A few days later I was shown that baby girl that represented my mind. I was visiting Lord Shiva at mount Kailash one day soon after I got my new mind. He had her on his lap, lying down like a baby. She was dressed in a pale yellow frock.

A week or two after that, I was thinking of Lord Shiva and in a not so sacred way for a few moments. Then I visited him at mount Kailash. I found Lord Shiva seated kneeling next to a four feet tall white Shivling, just like mine. He was bathing that baby girl’s head.  At this moment I realized that I’d have to be more careful with my thoughts and I decided to try to control them a little better.

// Saturday, July 21, 2018.