Journeys to explore my desire for Lord Shiva.

1)    Journey to ask Baby Makhan Chor for a healing or blessing.

It was Janmashtami, Lord Krishna’s birthday on September 3rd of 2018. After doing a little worship, I went for a journey to ask for his blessing or healing.

I went to mount Kailash. Lord Shiva was seated on his huge meditation rock. I worshipped Lord Shiva’s family and then him. Then I stated my journey intention to Lord Shiva, “Lord Shiva, could you please call in Baby Makhan Chor?” Baby Makhan Chor is one of Lord Krishna’s childhood names because he would steal butter as a kid.

Baby Makhan Chor showed up immediately. As soon as I went near him, he threw me into the waterfall. I merged with the water and after a while, I took a human form. Looking at this form, I saw that it was of a much younger age, dark skinned with two eyes staring at me. She was wearing a frock and had short hair and resembled my power self that had been psychically attacked about two years ago. Its color looked like the color of sin. I left that being sitting in the water a returned to mount Kailash.

Then, at the sound of the return beat of the drum, I came back to normal reality, back to my room.

I contemplated for a few days on the image that I had seen. Then a few days after that, I decided to journey to explore my desire for Lord Shiva. I am quite sure I have not displeased or angered him yet, nut you never know.

// Saturday, September 08, 2018.

2)    Journey to ask Lord Shiva to show me where my desire for him was located in my body.

I went to mount Kailash. Lord Shiva was seated on his huge meditation rock. I stated my journey intention to Lord Shiva, “Lord Shiva, I still feel an attraction towards you every now and then. (Not my fault; it was only a few years ago that I’d found out that he is my Dad. I’m so glad that Mother Goddess, Parvati, was so amused). Could you please show me where the core of this desire is located in my physical body?”

I stood in my light body form with my back to the east. I saw a dark circular spot; it is hard to pinpoint exactly, but it felt like at the junction of my ribcage, above my stomach, at the junction of the stomach and oesophagus.

Then, at the sound of the return beat of the drum, I came back to normal reality, back to my room.

 3)    Journey to ask Mother Goddess, Parvati to accompany me into this core, dark spot to explore it.

I went to mount Kailash. Lord Shiva was seated on his huge meditation rock. I stated my journey intention to Lord Shiva, “Lord Shiva, I want to Journey with Mother Goddess, Parvati into this core, dark spot and explore it. You can join us later when I need to release something.”

Mother Goddess, Parvati appeared next to me and as we entered into the said dark spot, I found myself changed to a kid, about seven years old, maybe. I was wearing a white frock and holding her hand. It was dark grey to blackish all around us, like the color of black smoke. I retried, re-entered with her in my present form and once again, I was the same kid and holding Goddess, Parvati’s hand and surrounded by the same dark all around. So, I decided to continue with the journey ‘As is.’ We were just at the entrance all this time.

I was immediately tranced out and have no idea what happened for the next fifteen to twenty minutes.

Then, at the sound of the return beat of the drum, I came back to normal reality, back to my room.

 4)    Journey to ask Lord Shiva to accompany me into this core, dark spot to explore it.

I went to mount Kailash. Lord Shiva was seated on his huge meditation rock. I stated my journey intention to Lord Shiva, “Lord Shiva, I want to Journey with you into this core, dark spot and explore it; heal and release what needs to be healed and released.”

Lord Shiva stood next to me and we merged. Then we entered into the said dark spot. We were just at the entrance at this time and just like before, it was dark grey to blackish all around us, like the color of black smoke. However, this time around, as we stood merged in the darkness, I was feeling a good amount of sexual energy in my physical body.

After the energy moved around and died out, I was watching a visual. We were in a scene; it looked like a lower world or Pataal lok issue. There was a river and the water in it was dark, like black. The surroundings were all dark. Lord Shiva stood there, with me merged in him and I was looking through his eyes. I watched as the darkness in the atmosphere soon cleared away and everything, except for the river looked bluish, like cloudy twilight. The river was still pitch black and it was flowing south to north as far as I could say. I continued to watch; but the river would not clear; it was still the same black color.

Then, at the sound of the return beat of the drum, I came back to normal reality, back to my room.

5)    Journey to ask Lord Shiva to show me what this being looked like.

I’ve noticed in the past that very emotion takes a human form.

I went to mount Kailash. Lord Shiva was seated on his huge meditation rock. I stated my journey intention to Lord Shiva, “Lord Shiva, please show me what this person would look like, the one that is so inappropriate towards you.”

I was sitting or somewhat lying down on Lord Shiva’s lap as I stated this intention. A dark black thing appeared on the left thigh of his lap. I don’t know if I was converted into it or just watching it. I had disappeared from his lap immediately; I was stunned and shocked by its appearance. I reappeared and requested Lord Shiva to place it on the earth close by. Lord Shiva obliged. Next, he kneeled next to the black structure and poured water over it and then, soon after, he started to pour milk over it. I noticed that this structure looked like charred wooden tree trunk or thick branch, about a foot to foot and a half tall and about a third of its height in width. Looking closely, I also noticed that it had a pink face carved into it. The pink face had appeared after Lord Shiva had started pouring water on it. The face did resemble my soul’s.

Then, the return beat of the drum sounded. I requested Lord Shiva to continue with the healing and complete it and I came back to normal reality, back to my room.

// Saturday, September 22, 2018.

6)    Journey to ask Lord Shiva to accompany me into this core, dark spot to check on its current state.

I went to mount Kailash. Lord Shiva was seated on his huge meditation rock. I stated my journey intention to Lord Shiva, “Lord Shiva, I want to Journey with you into this core, dark spot and check on its current state and may be, even the burnt log being.”

Lord Shiva stood next to me and we merged. Then we entered into the said dark spot and we moved right into the previous scene where I was watching a visual that looked like Pataal lok. There was a river and the water in it was still dark; but not as black or sticky and sludgy as before. The surroundings were all still somewhat bluish grey to cloudy bluish. Lord Shiva stood there, with me merged in him and I was looking through his eyes. Slowly, the darkness of the river cleared completely. I continued to watch; but the surroundings would not clear any further; it was still the same dirty blue twilight color.

Then we returned back to Lord Shiva’s rock on mount Kailash. Lord Shiva was seated on his huge meditation rock and a pretty woman appeared next to him. It was this part of me that he had cleared. I contemplated about gifting away this part of me to him; but decided to wait and see further. Thinking back, she did not look anything like the soul part I was shown on September 3rd of 2018. This one was a pretty young woman in a red saree. She resembled a soul part of mine, but not the same one that I had seen under the river. So I’d have to research this further.

Then, at the sound of the return beat of the drum, I came back to normal reality, back to my room.

// Saturday, September 29, 2018.

Journey to get me out of a big chord to my third chakra.

I went to mount Kailash. Lord Shiva was seated on his huge meditation rock. I was still offering my puja to the Shiva family when a white light was focused on me like when a helicopter focuses light during a search operation. I was shown a very thick and heavy black chord all around my stomach from front to back like a noose and clawed in tightly. I was shown as my soul part, my power part who was psychically attacked about a year or two earlier.

I stated my journey intention to Lord Shiva, “Lord Shiva, could you please release this thing from me?”

Lord Shiva stood up. He had his trident in his right hand.

I demanded to know who was on the other side of that chord, who is chorded into me. A really beautiful woman appeared. She looked very goddess like. Prior to this, very recently, I had been told by Atreya that a Grandmother of mine was chorded to me at my third chakra and she was going to remove it. I assumed she was that Grandmother I was looking at.  Now Lord Shiva was looking down at a heavy black and sticky smoke at the bottom and south cliff of Mount Kailash. He had been working on this for quite some time now as far as I was concerned and I was feeling pretty miserable. I screamed at that woman, “You are not supposed to chord into me! You are supposed to send it to Mother Earth. Why are you chording to me!” All this time, I was struggling to get out of it and I vain while she was also watching me with no response whatsoever on her face. Seeing that Lord Shiva was not making any visible progress what so ever, I (the stuck soul part that was chorded) desperately called on Lord Vishnu, “Lord Vishnu, could you please come and release me from this chord?” Lord Vishnu immediately appeared in his full god form and with one hand he slightly lifted up the chord and made enough space for my soul part to slide out of it. Lord Shiva continued to work on the heavy black and sticky smoke and I was sent into the water to cleanse myself.

Then, at the sound of the return beat of the drum, I came back to normal reality, back to my room.

// Saturday, May 19, 2018.

Journey to heal my mental-emotional layer.

1)    Journey to explore the health of my mental-emotional layer.

The solar eclipse of 2018 had just passed. The Lunar eclipse of 2018 was just around the corner. This was supposed to be a major event. There was a combination of the Moon with Mars and Ketu energies on one hand and the influence of Uranus and Venus energies on the other hand.

I went to mount Kailash. Lord Shiva was seated on his huge meditation rock. I stated my journey intention to Lord Shiva, “Lord Shiva, could you please show me my mental-emotional layer.” Everything looked clear and bright except for two dark spots on the two ends of the layer.

Next, I merged with Lord Shiva and dropped into the dark spot on the right hand side of my mental-emotional layer. It was pitch black everywhere and somewhere through that darkness, I noticed a dark black whirlpool. The word was “Turmoil.” I stayed with Lord Shiva and watched for some time. Just the atmosphere had lightened up a bit.

Next, I brought in a clear point quartz and a black tourmaline fan in normal reality and held on to them during the remaining duration of the healing. I also used the fan to occasionally comb my aura. 

Then, at the sound of the return beat of the drum, I came back to normal reality, back to my room.

Next, I repeated this journey for the left hand side of my aura. This side was dark as well with a black colored water all around with little floating islands. I was drawn to one corner of this scene as the atmosphere cleared a little. What I saw did not make any sense to me.

Then, at the sound of the return beat of the drum, I came back to normal reality, back to my room.

At the end of each of these two journeys, there was still a lot of healing and clearing left to be done.

The next morning, I set my journey CD and revisited Lord Shiva.

This was prime time to clear out this issue. The planetary influence was such, I had learned.

2)    Journey to cleanse my mental-emotional layer.

I went to mount Kailash. Lord Shiva was seated on his huge meditation rock. I stated my journey intention to Lord Shiva, to visit goddess Lalita with the same healing intention, i.e., to clean and heal all heavy energies and dark spots from my mental-emotional layer.

I reached Goddess Lalita’s garden in an instant.  Lord Shiva had already seated himself on a huge rock there. He sat next to Goddess Lalita, on her right hand side. They were on the east direction. Goddess Lalita is a form of Lord Shiva’s wife, Parvati. She works very swiftly and Lord Shiva just loves to sit back and watch when we visit her.

As soon as I reached Goddess Lalita’s garden, the healing became sort of a spontaneous thing. My soul part, who looks like my power self that was attacked one day, showed up and said to her, “Can you release my poopy thoughts?” and as soon as she said it she had to step to the side of the garden; she had poop coming out. She quickly dug a round hole, about four inches wide and six inches deep and let two-thirds of the poop into the hole and covered it with earth. She shill had a third that was still coming out. Goddess Lalita and Lord Shiva sat next to each other as my soul part was doing this. Next, she was instantly dropped into a river that had appeared out of nowhere. The water of this river was sparkling clean and it was flowing from under the garden and was flowing to the east. Now, my soul part had her poop in her hand and she was wondering if she was going to go back to bury it; the sparkling silvery water looked too clean to let a poop drop into it. Goddess Lalita told my soul, “Let it flow away.” So my soul part dropped the remaining third of her poop into the river and watched it float away.

Then, at the sound of the return beat of the drum, I came back to normal reality, back to my room.

I was totally dumbfounded and wowed after watching this.

// Saturday, September 1, 2018.

Journey to release what is ready to be released at this time.

1)    Journey to release what is ready to be released at this time.

The solar eclipse of 2018 was just around the corner. Pluto was retrograde along with a few of the other planets. This was supposed to be a major event. It was also just around the summer solstice.  This was a great time let go of stuff that was ready to release. I informed my group about this. The group did not have enough time; they wanted to do a different journey. So I went on my own journey.

I went to mount Kailash. Lord Shiva was seated on his huge meditation rock. I stated my journey intention to Lord Shiva, “Lord Shiva, could you please help me release whatever is ready to be released at this time?

I was thrown into a waterfall formed from three rivers, like the triveni (three rivers joining) in Varanasi. It is considered very auspicious. They just produce it out of nowhere. The land on Kailash parts and they throw me into this waterfall. Sometimes, I just merge with the water and sometimes I just sit under the waterfall or under the river. They do not give me any directions as to what I am supposed to do.

Today, as usual, they threw me into the waterfall. I merged with the water and then I returned and sat under the waterfall.

Then, at the sound of the return beat of the drum, while I was returning, I saw that I was wearing a ladies black cowboy boot on my right foot and the shoe had got caught among the rocks and I had to just slip it off my foot to release myself. Then I came back to normal reality, back to the center of our circle.

// Tuesday, July 10, 2018.

2)    Journey to release what is ready to be released at this time.

The solar eclipse of 2018 had just passed. The Lunar eclipse of 2018 was just around the corner. This was supposed to be a major event. There was a combination of the Moon with Mars and Ketu energies on one hand and the influence of Uranus and Venus energies on the other hand. The group wanted to do this journey and I decided to repeat what I had already done the last time.

I went to mount Kailash. Lord Shiva was seated on his huge meditation rock. I stated my journey intention to Lord Shiva, “Lord Shiva, could you please help me release whatever is ready to be released at this time?

I was thrown into a waterfall formed from three rivers, like the triveni (three rivers joining) in Varanasi. It is considered very auspicious. They just produce it out of nowhere. The land on Kailash parts and they throw me into this waterfall. Sometimes, I just merge with the water and sometimes I just sit under the waterfall or under the river. They do not give me any directions as to what I am supposed to do.

Today, as usual, they threw me into the waterfall. I merged with the water and there was a lot of black oily sludge that was all over the place where I was merged.  Usually, this separates and I leave by the time the return beat starts; but today, it was not yet separated.

Then, at the sound of the return beat of the drum, I just left the black sludge behind and came back to normal reality, back to the center of our circle.

// Tuesday, July 24, 2018.