Journeys to explore my desire for Lord Shiva.

1)    Journey to ask Baby Makhan Chor for a healing or blessing.

It was Janmashtami, Lord Krishna’s birthday on September 3rd of 2018. After doing a little worship, I went for a journey to ask for his blessing or healing.

I went to mount Kailash. Lord Shiva was seated on his huge meditation rock. I worshipped Lord Shiva’s family and then him. Then I stated my journey intention to Lord Shiva, “Lord Shiva, could you please call in Baby Makhan Chor?” Baby Makhan Chor is one of Lord Krishna’s childhood names because he would steal butter as a kid.

Baby Makhan Chor showed up immediately. As soon as I went near him, he threw me into the waterfall. I merged with the water and after a while, I took a human form. Looking at this form, I saw that it was of a much younger age, dark skinned with two eyes staring at me. She was wearing a frock and had short hair and resembled my power self that had been psychically attacked about two years ago. Its color looked like the color of sin. I left that being sitting in the water a returned to mount Kailash.

Then, at the sound of the return beat of the drum, I came back to normal reality, back to my room.

I contemplated for a few days on the image that I had seen. Then a few days after that, I decided to journey to explore my desire for Lord Shiva. I am quite sure I have not displeased or angered him yet, nut you never know.

// Saturday, September 08, 2018.

2)    Journey to ask Lord Shiva to show me where my desire for him was located in my body.

I went to mount Kailash. Lord Shiva was seated on his huge meditation rock. I stated my journey intention to Lord Shiva, “Lord Shiva, I still feel an attraction towards you every now and then. (Not my fault; it was only a few years ago that I’d found out that he is my Dad. I’m so glad that Mother Goddess, Parvati, was so amused). Could you please show me where the core of this desire is located in my physical body?”

I stood in my light body form with my back to the east. I saw a dark circular spot; it is hard to pinpoint exactly, but it felt like at the junction of my ribcage, above my stomach, at the junction of the stomach and oesophagus.

Then, at the sound of the return beat of the drum, I came back to normal reality, back to my room.

 3)    Journey to ask Mother Goddess, Parvati to accompany me into this core, dark spot to explore it.

I went to mount Kailash. Lord Shiva was seated on his huge meditation rock. I stated my journey intention to Lord Shiva, “Lord Shiva, I want to Journey with Mother Goddess, Parvati into this core, dark spot and explore it. You can join us later when I need to release something.”

Mother Goddess, Parvati appeared next to me and as we entered into the said dark spot, I found myself changed to a kid, about seven years old, maybe. I was wearing a white frock and holding her hand. It was dark grey to blackish all around us, like the color of black smoke. I retried, re-entered with her in my present form and once again, I was the same kid and holding Goddess, Parvati’s hand and surrounded by the same dark all around. So, I decided to continue with the journey ‘As is.’ We were just at the entrance all this time.

I was immediately tranced out and have no idea what happened for the next fifteen to twenty minutes.

Then, at the sound of the return beat of the drum, I came back to normal reality, back to my room.

 4)    Journey to ask Lord Shiva to accompany me into this core, dark spot to explore it.

I went to mount Kailash. Lord Shiva was seated on his huge meditation rock. I stated my journey intention to Lord Shiva, “Lord Shiva, I want to Journey with you into this core, dark spot and explore it; heal and release what needs to be healed and released.”

Lord Shiva stood next to me and we merged. Then we entered into the said dark spot. We were just at the entrance at this time and just like before, it was dark grey to blackish all around us, like the color of black smoke. However, this time around, as we stood merged in the darkness, I was feeling a good amount of sexual energy in my physical body.

After the energy moved around and died out, I was watching a visual. We were in a scene; it looked like a lower world or Pataal lok issue. There was a river and the water in it was dark, like black. The surroundings were all dark. Lord Shiva stood there, with me merged in him and I was looking through his eyes. I watched as the darkness in the atmosphere soon cleared away and everything, except for the river looked bluish, like cloudy twilight. The river was still pitch black and it was flowing south to north as far as I could say. I continued to watch; but the river would not clear; it was still the same black color.

Then, at the sound of the return beat of the drum, I came back to normal reality, back to my room.

5)    Journey to ask Lord Shiva to show me what this being looked like.

I’ve noticed in the past that very emotion takes a human form.

I went to mount Kailash. Lord Shiva was seated on his huge meditation rock. I stated my journey intention to Lord Shiva, “Lord Shiva, please show me what this person would look like, the one that is so inappropriate towards you.”

I was sitting or somewhat lying down on Lord Shiva’s lap as I stated this intention. A dark black thing appeared on the left thigh of his lap. I don’t know if I was converted into it or just watching it. I had disappeared from his lap immediately; I was stunned and shocked by its appearance. I reappeared and requested Lord Shiva to place it on the earth close by. Lord Shiva obliged. Next, he kneeled next to the black structure and poured water over it and then, soon after, he started to pour milk over it. I noticed that this structure looked like charred wooden tree trunk or thick branch, about a foot to foot and a half tall and about a third of its height in width. Looking closely, I also noticed that it had a pink face carved into it. The pink face had appeared after Lord Shiva had started pouring water on it. The face did resemble my soul’s.

Then, the return beat of the drum sounded. I requested Lord Shiva to continue with the healing and complete it and I came back to normal reality, back to my room.

// Saturday, September 22, 2018.

6)    Journey to ask Lord Shiva to accompany me into this core, dark spot to check on its current state.

I went to mount Kailash. Lord Shiva was seated on his huge meditation rock. I stated my journey intention to Lord Shiva, “Lord Shiva, I want to Journey with you into this core, dark spot and check on its current state and may be, even the burnt log being.”

Lord Shiva stood next to me and we merged. Then we entered into the said dark spot and we moved right into the previous scene where I was watching a visual that looked like Pataal lok. There was a river and the water in it was still dark; but not as black or sticky and sludgy as before. The surroundings were all still somewhat bluish grey to cloudy bluish. Lord Shiva stood there, with me merged in him and I was looking through his eyes. Slowly, the darkness of the river cleared completely. I continued to watch; but the surroundings would not clear any further; it was still the same dirty blue twilight color.

Then we returned back to Lord Shiva’s rock on mount Kailash. Lord Shiva was seated on his huge meditation rock and a pretty woman appeared next to him. It was this part of me that he had cleared. I contemplated about gifting away this part of me to him; but decided to wait and see further. Thinking back, she did not look anything like the soul part I was shown on September 3rd of 2018. This one was a pretty young woman in a red saree. She resembled a soul part of mine, but not the same one that I had seen under the river. So I’d have to research this further.

Then, at the sound of the return beat of the drum, I came back to normal reality, back to my room.

// Saturday, September 29, 2018.